Does anyone else have a hard time staying focused? Does anyone else fall into the comparison trap then doubt your calling? Does anyone else feel guilty for not being up to speed with successful people in your field? Well… join the club.
My focus has been scattered for the past two weeks.
- I haven’t written my blog for 2 weeks.
- I haven’t worked on my book for 2 weeks.
- I haven’t read over my goals for 2 weeks.
- I didn’t finish 2 new books in the past 2 weeks.
- I only listened to one motivational/inspirational podcast.
- I ran out of Greek Yogurt which made me eat too much popcorn and 2 pieces of pie.
- I read all the great tweets Thanksgiving Day and felt like a slacker because I wasn’t divulging some profound piece of wisdom to my readers. I was shoving pie, turkey and dressing in my face.
Oh how far I’ve fallen! I’ve been so scatter-brained and unfocused!
I guess that’s not entirely true. I was focused. I was focused on deer hunting. I get obsessed and can’t think about anything else until I get my deer. It’s a sickness. And I have it.
On the bright side though…
We have approximately 140 pounds of meat put in the freezer so far. Troy and I spent a lot of time in the deer blind together sitting in temperatures that were too cold for sane people. It was fun and productive but… I fell short where writing is concerned.
I loved spending time with family Thanksgiving. Getting together with family around a table crowded with far too much sugar and butter was a pure caloric nightmare that tasted like heaven. It was a glutton’s paradise and I enjoyed every minute of it. I just wish I’d worn stretchy pants. Thanksgiving is definitely the day for leggings.
There was so much to enjoy in the last two weeks. But when I let myself ease off my focus that much, I find myself beginning to doubt and compare. I doubt my calling and I compare myself to others who seem to have focus of steel.
The past couple of days this thought has been rolling around in my head.
“You’re not a writer. You’re not called to write. You have nothing to write and no one to read it anyway. You’re fooling yourself and wasting your time.”
Well if that won’t just make you feel like a real winner!
I wasn’t feeling like a winner. Or a writer.
My mind was telling me what I’m not. BUT… my heart was telling me what I am.
I may not have it all figured out. I may have a long way to go. But still… in my heart I know I am called to write. In my heart I know God has given me an avenue for encouraging others and cheering them on to greatness even when I don’t feel so great. In my heart I know… I am a writer.
What I also know is this…
We have to keep believing in our hearts what our minds can’t envision.
We have to keep hanging on to what we know in our hearts no matter what our minds tell us. Do it, Friend. Hang on. We have to!
If you hang in there, God will give you a token from heaven to remind you of the calling He’s placed on your life. He did it for me today (again) and I know He’ll do it for you – at just the right time.
Check out the Scripture verse I “happened” across this morning. As it turns out, it’s the same verse I posted on Facebook exactly two years ago today. Coincidence? I think not.
What I noticed was Peter stating his purpose for writing – to encourage and assure others. That’s MY purpose in writing. That’s why I write! I write to encourage others. I’m not writing just to be heard. I’m writing to encourage and hopefully people hear it.
The other token of encouragement God gave me in this verse is to stand firm in the grace God has given me in this writing experience. God has enough grace for everything we need. I need grace to write and to believe in myself.
Friend, I don’t know if you struggle with keeping your focus or comparing yourself to others. I don’t know if doubt tries to creep into your mind like it does mine. But if it does… go back to what God said.
Did God call you?
Has God given you tokens of encouragement to keep on?
If He has, then hang on to them. Hang on with all your might. With all your heart! And keep at it one day at a time.
We’ll have days when we get discouraged. We’ll have days when we feel behind. When we do let’s do this…
Let’s remind ourselves “why” we’re doing what we’re doing.
Let’s grab another measure of grace.
And let’s stand firm.
Let’s do this.
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