How do you make the leap from being terrified to trusting God when circumstances are out of your control? That’s exactly the leap I had to make when I got the text at 9:18 a.m., October 28th, 2015.
The text read, “Canton School on lockdown. Looking for a man on the run who shot a lady in the head. They are saying lock your doors.”
I don’t mean to be dramatic here but… that was frightening. It was especially frightening when a later message said the man jumped out of a vehicle at the Canton Y. People, that’s where I live. If you ask for directions to my house, I’ll tell you, “I’m the house at the Canton Y.” See my concern?
I asked Troy what I should do. He said, “Arm yourself.” I loaded my Smith and Wesson .38 Special and my Thompson Center .308 rifle. If the shotgun wasn’t such a booger to load, I would’ve loaded it, too. Don’t ask me what I would have done with three firearms and two hands. I had to be ready.
As I stalked around the house, handgun in the holster and rifle in my hand, I peeked out the windows for any sign of the killer. First the bedrooms. Then the bathroom. Finally the great room. Surveying. And before I knew it, I had let my mind run wild. Is he on my property? What if he’s in the trees behind the house? What if he comes to the door? What if he sees me through the windows? Do I leave the blinds open? Do I close the blinds? Am I a good enough shot? What if I miss? Did I tell Troy I love him? What if I don’t make it out alive?! Aaaahhh!!!!
Wait! Wait! Wait! Gwen! What are you doing???? Get a grip, girl! Get. A. Grip!
Honestly. I had myself embroiled in an all-out war before 9:30 in the morning! Gracious.
But don’t we do that? Don’t we let our thoughts get swallowed up in the what-ifs? I try not to do it but it sneaks up on me. And that morning before I knew it, I was wrapped in panic and fright.
Can you relate? Chances are… you can.
You may not be experiencing the same facts I experienced. But you may be experiencing the same feelings I was feeling.
Maybe God is calling you into ministry and the very thought terrifies you. Maybe your job is in jeopardy and you have a family to feed. Maybe your spouse walked out and you don’t know how to live beyond this moment. It all brings fear.
When we jump straight into a hole of panic we have to climb our way out. We can’t stay there. We have to make the leap from terror to trust. But how?
This works. Pray and remind yourself of God’s Word.
Praying God’s Word will take you from terror to trust.
I know. I know. It sounds simple. But sometimes we have to remind ourselves of the obvious. To get rid of fear we have to trust God. The best way to do that is to focus on God’s Word. I didn’t know where the man was, but God had an aerial view. God’s Word says,
“The Lord is watching everywhere, keeping his eye on both the evil and the good.” Proverbs 15:3 NLT
I had to trust God to keep His eye on me. And He did.
You don’t feel you have the qualifications or ability to be in ministry or leadership, but take God’s promise to heart.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Psalm 32:8
God doesn’t call you then leave you to figure it out for yourself. He’ll lead you and teach you. Trust Him.
You don’t know what’s going to happen if you lose your job, but the Apostle Paul assures
“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19 NLT
You see? God is your Source and Provider. Trust Him.
You don’t know how you’re going to live without the person to whom you pledged your love and devotion, but take comfort in this declaration.
“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 NLT
I love that! God will personally see you through and give you the strength to face whatever is around the corner. Trust Him!
With a God who sees all, knows all and is all we need, we can trust that He hears our prayers and is ready to come to our rescue. We have to shake ourselves out of fear and remind ourselves of God’s Word. We must make that leap and TRUST HIM.
Once I got my mind off my crisis and onto God, peace flooded my heart and mind. It will yours, too, friend. Give it a try. Change your focus and trust Him. Step out in faith. God is big enough to meet your need. He’s got an aerial view of your life. He’s not forgotten you and He’s not surprised by the events surrounding you. Just make that leap. Trust Him.
(as of this posting the man is still on the run)
photo by: sabrina’s stash